I am going through something similar right now. I am trying to figure out how I am going to leave and he can feel it. He's been helpful, nicer, less demanding and we haven't fought in days. Says he is trying, not drinking as much...and then I caught him in a lie about drinking. He keeps talking about our future and I sit there and feel sad and guilty. It's hard, but I keep telling myself I deserve better...I hope I believe it soon, I'm getting closer every day.