Originally Posted by
blwninthewind 
so here's my question...
How do I walk away?
How can I do it without falling completely apart? I know it's right..but I am so scared. I can't fail...my kids are depending on me...but how do I do it. He has been my best friend and worst enemy for over 20 yrs.
I know his faults and he knows mine...I want to go...but I want to stay...
my heart is breaking....
My heart goes out to you friend. I am 3 days out of my relationship with my AGF and honestly I feel like I'm dying. I spend most of my time in a fog, panic, or crying. I saw all the possitive steps she was talking just like you mention in your situation, and yet experianced all the cyclic bad behavior that you mention too. I've been second guessing myself since I left, but that my be an issue for me to work out. I wish you all the luck with whatever you choose. You are not alone in this.