Originally Posted by
kat89 
i'm just so afraid that he's never going to stop feeling sorry for himself and end up dead from an overdose. i feel like i could never forgive myself for kicking him out if that were to happen.
Since you appreciated the bluntness, allow me to persist.
Right up there with the hopeful fantasy of who you need and want him to be is the hopeful fantasy that you can control and cure his addiction. If love were that powerful, absolutely none of us would be here. There is only one cause of death by OD of heroin and that's addiction. He's likely going to use no matter where he sleeps. The more we impose ourselves between someone and the consequences of their behaviors, the less likely they are every going to consider alternatives.
Please know:
You did not cause this.
Your cannot control this.
You cannot cure this.
This is not personal. He's not using at you. It just feels that way, right now.