(((jolinda))) - I'm sorry for what has brought you here. When I first found SR (I lurked for a couple of years) I read through a LOT of threads and realized I wasn't the only one. You aren't either, sweetie.
I'm sure others will be along soon, but the best you can do is take care of you and your son. Your hubby is going to do whatever he wants, and there's not really anything you can do to change him.
Please do keep reading and posting. We do care.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy