thankyou so much for your comments everyone
I have realized over the course of the day that because I have reached this milestone the delusion and denial has kicked in as I feel so much better with no alcohol in my system and just looking to reward myself for getting to 30 days. The question I ask myself is why do I want to go there again when it has made me so sick?
I know in my heart of heart than I am an alcoholic as when I am not drinking I am obsessed with it!
Back to AA for me