Hi Autumn,
I just wanted to say thanks for posting, and I really can relate to you. I'm only finishing day 8, but I did a similar thing in committing to 30 days sober. I would drink every night, but usually it was two beers, or 3/4 of a bottle of wine. Occasionally 2-4 shots of liquor.
Over the last 8-10 days, I've had a lot of time to think about why I drink. I've definitely discovered that alcohol has been my way to cope with all of my emotions as of late. So I want to change that.
I have been, maybe still am a little hung up on the problem drinker vs alcoholic. I think what I realized in my case (and this may not be true for you, only you can know), is that I felt like if I was "just an alcohol abuser" instead of an alcoholic, I wasn't deserving of the help of trying to stop, and I was making a big deal out of nothing.
What I have realized is that it is bothering ME, and that is the only thing that matters.
There is a reason you are looking at this right now, and evaluating your drinking for yourself. Focus on that, instead of trying to put yourself into a classification.
Sorry if I sound like I'm trying to minimize or give advice, actually, I'm talking probably more to myself than I am to you!
Best wishes!