I'm glad you're going to a meeting. Think of it like SR, but with f2f people.
As a recovering addict and a recovering codie, I need other recovering people in my life. I have no doubt, whatsoever, that I would not have just passed my 5-year recovery birthday if it were not for the support I've gotten from other recovering people.
It's not just the addiction..I was a raging codie, have 3 XABF's and was always focused on "fixing" other people and their situations. I got to the point I didn't even know who I was without someone else to focus on. It's taken me time to realize that people are going to do what they're going to do...addiction or not. The only person I have any control over is me.
Oh, and just an FYI - I had a felony (it was first offender so I don't have one now), I was a streetwalking crackhead, jumping into cars with strange men...homeless, etc. If you read anything by me on this forum, you will see that I'm no longer that person. That chapter of my life is closed, as long as I continue to work recovery.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy