I've made many "never" kind of vows in the past with drinking and other things and I think most if not all of them failed. I don't seem to have much success with "never". I think i will just kind of use the idea of a beast wanting to drink and to just ignore it and not get too hung up on what I will or will not never/ever do. I guess I can just say to this av, "i don't drink anymore beast, sorry" or something like that. Maybe without the sorry. Really I just don't want to drink anymore. I don't care how I do it as long as it breaks the addiction/works. Based on my own experience with addictive things like pot and cigarettes, it seems the most important thing is to reject or not respond to the urge and keep doing it and the urges will weaken and eventually no longer exist/happen given enough time.