MadisonBlake,
I think one of the hardest things right now is just going through the acceptance phase again. Accepting the loss of a loved one in your everyday life, the loss of a connection, the loss of a friend. I'm sitting at work right now just wanting to cry. I hope I stay strong enough this time to just never speak to this person for a very long time, if ever. No contact starts again today!
That is so hard and especially because nothing is ever all bad, Even through all the horrible times with my son, there were those nice times chillin’ and watching one of our favorite scifi movies or listening to music. Strangely, we had a lot in common (besides drugs). A good cry is much needed sometimes.
I am glad you are close to your sis. It's good to have that support- Of course you have us too
You better not alienate yourself again!!
Time for new adventures, MadisonBlake
Hugs