However much he weighs....that is the size of the rock you are carrying on your back.
While he is in NY, the rock is not weighing you down.
Everytime you take his calls and listen to his pleading, you are contemplating strapping that rock on your back again. Visualize actually holding the rope in your hands, beginning to tie the rock around your arms and torso, to begin carrying it on your back yet again.
He became the rock you carry when you discovered his addiction.
He became the rock you carry when he chose not to work, not to be a proper father, a proper husband.
He became the rock you carry when he pawned your belongings and used money needed for food, clothing and shelter for you and your children.
You and you alone hold the key to not strapping that rock on your back again.