Welcome. I am gaining a strength i didn't know i had through AA. The strength of the community and learning the program. AA is a nice place to be around all kinds of people. Newcomers, Oldtimers and everyone inbetween. Go to a few meetings. I've been to 4 in a row. Going to number 5 tomorrow. I' usually late to everything but haven't been late to a meeting yet. Give it a chance and give yourself a chance.