Dear both,
Thx for the hugs...
I know it's just weak moment. I know that im not alone. And I am always weak in weekends.
Dear Marytherboo, I'm totally related to what u said. 'I just drift along wishing things were magically different'. I really look down upon myself for the fact that I'm actually wishing him to contact me again and tell me that he finally get a program. I wish that he's not alcoholic and cocaine addict; maybe I should better wish I had never met him?
I miss him. I miss the person who looked into my eyes and told me to have faith on him; I miss the person who told me that hr had hard time and wished to have fresh start...
I miss him. I wish I don't.