I think she's referring to me...
I called the attitude pathetic, but I can see how it might be taken differently.
I feel like I am still carrying a burden 8 months after I supposedly let it go.
As long as you keep the option on the table, then there is another drink/fix with your name on it somewhere 'out there' in the future. This keeps hope for the Beast alive and kicking, and you'll feel like you are carrying a burden, as you say. Quitting something you love one-day-at-a-time is easy in the short run, which is why people do it, but difficult in the long run.