M7
I was trying to moderate/give up for years on and off. I found it really hard to shake the notion that Friday needed to be "special", relax, unwind etc. this always set the scene for a full on weekend.
This time I broke that notion and just told myself that "ordinary" could be special. Over time I have come to appreciate the different atmosphere of Fridays and commonly get a real feeling of calm. Sure this is different from the buzzy wind up and rush to "relax", but I had enough experience to know there was no true relaxation in drinking anymore, and it wasn't going to come back.
The practice gratitude opened my awareness to the enjoyment of ordinary, after years of dulling my senses and being bound up in "me".