Thank you HayYa and Julzz. I really appreciate the feedback! Especially hearing that it is no where near as bad as people make it out to be. I know it is different for everyone, but it is comforting to know it can be done and you are really an inspiration to me. I have always looked at going to meetings as another way to meet addicts and I know they save lives for some people, but I kind of feel like I just need to stay away from other influences like that. Maybe I will have to learn the hard way, and maybe its just because I do not trust myself enough to be in a situation where someone offers me something, that I couldn't say no. All I know now is that I have a great job and just met a great guy and have an incredibly loving family and I just want to live a normal life, off of methadone and free from any chemicals in my bloodstream.
Thanks again... I really appreciate all of the help!