Originally Posted by
Thrifty 
I too don't want to stray off topic, but thanks Dominorose for bringing up the eating book. I had an eating disorder when I was younger and was very interested to see how AVRT related to eating issues and how that may relate to alcohol. I wound up getting the book on kindle. Its very interesting so far and I can relate to the author's struggles with eating. Right now I am trying to learn all I can about AVRT since I have had some struggles this weekend.
I'm sorry but no, you didn't. Your Beast did though.
This matrix is critical:
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Using the above diagram you can turn the tables in an instant.
I'm struggling becomes
it's struggling.
Once you have made a Big Plan all anxiety, nervousness, etc about drinking/using again are your Beast's, not yours. There is no relapse anxiety. Ever.
I can empathise with you as I too felt that way but once you understand the AVRT Matrix, it becomes truly effortless.