Oh, dear Windmills, I confused you with my post for I did not intend at all to say you are doing anything wrong today.
What I tried to say was that his addiction wants you to enable it, to agree to everything he wants, it wants to abuse you and to abuse him.
I was trying to illustrate how addiction works to gets what it wants.
I hoped if I showed you things from that viewpoint it would firm up your resolve to keep doing what you are doing: to not go back, to continue to get help, to keep moving on.
Your posts said that you were wavering, that you were thinking with your heart and thinking about being with him. How much you missed him, how lonely you are.
I wanted to help you see that by not enabling him, you are helping to save him.
So I do apologize for saying that in a way that hurt you, for my true intent was to help you stay away.
You have had far enough hurt already.
So God bless you and may you feel better and stronger every day.