Thank you so much ENGLISHGARDEN, your advice gave me comport. It lets me know that I am not alone and the only who had to walk away from love. You were right when you said...
I saw my abf not as a disaster, but as someone so unique and extraordinary that i thought he was irreplaceable. I could not see myself as fortunate or protected, now that he was gone. (And I walked away from him only because he had made it clear I was unimportant to him. Not because I had any special strength but only because I had given up and could not stay for more pain). [/
He made it clear that I was not worth fighting for anymore, so why would I want to be with somone who doesnt want to be with me. He choose the easy road...the road that would let him self distruct and I didnt want to wait for the man I love to go down in flames like i had so many times before. I pray everyday and night, god is the only thing getting me through this. Thank you.