Glad you found your way over here, Ash! Welcome, again!!
Others will be along soon to share their experience, strength, and hope (ES&H). Relapse is scary, and I remember being on pins and needles waiting for whatever might happen next with "Jr.".
I agree that you deserve to make yourself and your daughters a priority right now. Your husband's struggle is his own to fight.
Hugs for you and the girls! I'll keep all of you and your husband in my thoughts and prayers. HG