Originally Posted by
tjp613 
My heart just aches for you. I wish we could be there just to sit with you and have a cup of tea. I just can't imagine how you must be feeling. Traumatized? To be honest, you sound a little "flat" or numb. Are you ok? Do you have anyone you can lean on? (((Hugs)))
Thank you for your support.
Our marriage therapist/crisis counselor (who I've been seeing alone for the past two weeks) is supposed to be calling me sometime this evening. She is about all I've got. My parents and in laws come down hard on me over my husband's addiction (like it's my fault he is using and they need emotional support from me) and my few friends are really tired of hearing about my husband's drama. I did meet some lovely people at the two Nar-anon meetings I attended, but I don't know any of them well enough to call.
I can't stop crying right now.
The emotions that are going on in my head right now are so many. I'm traumatized, I'm angry, I'm dissapointed in my choice of a husband, I'm heartbroken, and I'm so tired of not sharing my bed with the man I love.