Need somewhere to turn...
Long story short, I am married to an addict. We have been together 13 years and have a young daughter. I know I shouldn't have married him, the writing was on the wall. But I see so many good things in him, I love him and love our family. He's a caring man who treats me well. Maybe I need to readjust my standards since addicts never treat anyone well, this I know. I left him 8 months ago and took our infant daughter 600 miles away secretly in the middle of the night. I have never done anything like that before, I needed to get help for me. Needless to say we reconciled and as of last week I found out he's using again. I'm trying to keep it together, trying to stay active with other things..our daughter, friends, family, etc. but I am just so hurt, so lonely. I don't know if I can take this heartache any longer. I haven't told my family he is using again, I'm just so embarrassed, feel so weak. I need someone to talk to.