kelley...thank you so much for your story, you really hit it on head when you said you don't know if you are meant to be with your BF forever but need more time to decide. That is exactly how I feel. Right now in the time I am not ready to be done, but I can't guarantee that I won't get to that point. I cannot promise that we will stay married for ever if his behaviors continue and I have accepted that it may not last but right now I need more time to clear my head and sort through it and let him either prove me right or wrong, then I will move forward because although I love him so much, I love myself more.