Funny I still have those moments, I know its been 2 months now, and the disfunction I carry is still in me. It bothers me how easily he dropped us. I feel like I was just another person that he feels he screwed up on, so it was easy (in that pattern) to walk away. I know that he's having a harder time then I have. Only because when I saw him he was such a mess (sobbing) ... I still have that evil little voice inside of me that says that he really didn't love or care for me, that he's moving on and will never make amends. That's hard to swallow. I hear others speak on the effort that their "Qualifiers" have put in to at least try to keep them in their lives.
I know he loves me and maybe through all his disfunction is still trying to protect me by recognizing that he will just continue to destroy us... He said it several times.. "I am not good enough for you, I need to be better". I guess the rejection has been the most difficult part, the lack of... has been painful.
Can anyone relate?