((Zoso))
My thoughts are healing is a process ~ some days we feel like we have "got this" and we are doing well; then some days the grief, pain, sadness, shame, regret and reality of all we endured can overwhelm us ~ those are the tough days.
I stayed in an unhealthy, unsafe, insane marriage for over 17 years ~ I ALLOWED great pain, emotional and mental damage not only to myself but also to my daughters ~ somedays I don't know that I can ever get past that guilt, shame and regret.
Then the next day I am reminded of the past 7 & 1/2 years of things I have done to change my life, my behaviors, my patterns and to show them another way ~ They are all adults now ~ it is their choice to decide which is the life they want ~ I have made verbal and living amends - it's time to forgive myself and move on ~ again!
I believe the things you are posting shows you are healing and recovering ~ Progress not Perfection ~ One Day at a Time thru the process ~ give yourself time to heal!
Keep taking good care of YOU!!
PINK HUGS!
Rita