Addiction is baffling and cunning. Consider Alanon (a 12-step program for family and friends of alcoholics). Many of us here go to Alanon meetings besides this website. I learned how not to let addiction be in charge, but it takes a lot of support to do that. I could never have done that on my own, because addiction is just to big and just to baffling and cunning.
Keep coming back and google Alanon for meetings near you!! You are worth it!!