Wow....thank you...I have so much to think about, SO much to learn, and such a big journey in front of me but honestly, I'm a little excited, even for a moment, to start experiencing life all over again. I've hidden from the world for whatever reason(s), shame, fear, exhaustion, and found a too comfortable of a zone on my couch at night after work, drowning my worries with food or whatever "healthy" addiction felt interesting at the time (educational tv shows, cooking, etc.) until that became boring and onto the next interest. I have ADD so that doesn't help but I just started going to a specialist for both that and anxiety so that's a start I guess.
It is not going to be easy I know, and the up and down of what I'm feeling is very confusing to me. But it does help knowing there is a place to turn (here) for support.