Missgardenarm...I read your thread prior to seeing your response here and I had tears welling up in my eyes. The only reason why I stopped is because I'm at work. I relate to what you're experiencing - you just want so badly the person who you fell in love with. It would be so much easier if the feelings weren't there any more. We continue to love despite the pain. I swear, it's like mourning the death of a loved one over and over and over again.
Thank you and hugs back to you. And prayers to our loved ones...