You have articulated very clearly the dilemma of people in addiction. I am really pleased you have done this, as I was just starting a similar thread myself. I can compare your experience with mine and it helps me see how "mad" I am being in wanting to drink more, given that I know what the consequences will be. Let's not drink and stay happy! Let's also try and chat here again on Saturday when the crazy cravings should have slipped away.