Originally Posted by
sturmy16 
I guess I don't want to tell them because then that would mean the jig is up and I am actually done. This scares me. I guess it is because I am an alcoholic and the thought of not drinking is frightening.
You know what's frightening?...Try doing what you are doing for another twenty years...If you can make it that long. Forget the drinking trip....That's plain insanity. Take that time to get to meetings...Study the Big Book...Spend time with your sponsor and be working hard on your fourth step when they get back. Pick up the 2000 pound phone and stay connected with your new AA friends that will be there for you....Hang on to your white chip...And change your life. Sounds to me like you are done. What good are you really getting out of alcohol right now? Sit down and make yourself a list...I'd love to see it.