I'm so sorry, Help33. You pain is difficult and real. I pray that all of our sons and daughters soon come to the realization that they need help that we can't give them. The old "what ifs" come into play in our minds and somehow manipulate us into thinking it's up to us to save them and if they die, it will be our fault for not rescuing. I have trouble stopping - just keep thinking one more try, one more time.
May God help all of us to gain the knowledge, courage, and faith it takes to walk this very difficult journey. We didn't want the ticket for this trip, but can't seem to give it back. ((hug))