No offense taken but he really was a different person (in a good way) before the vicodin really took hold of him. Not making excuses by any means, I am (thankfully) past that, but he hadn't been taking them that long when we met and as his tolerance grew, his moods and personality changed.
I would think the fantasy would be if I had never seen any good or any kind of values and was projecting what I "hoped" he is as a person and/or if he showed no desire to rid himelf of this addiction. Like I stated, I see the mistakes I've made by enabling him and ignoring the signs thinking it was making my life easier, but I am of the mindset that everyone deserves a second chance and I am choosing to give him that as long as he actively seeks help - which he is.
But, that is why I am here, to understand all the stages and emotions that someone in my position goes through.