I agree with TU on the counting sober time. I have been lucky enough to be successful at a few things in my life and I have learned through working at those that one of the worst things to be is to results-oriented. To me counting sober days is like a superb athlete couting points, goals, or touchdowns during a game. I don't think you would ever hear Micheal Jordan or Tom Brady say they were thinking about how well they were doing in a game while playing. It's ok to look back and reflect at milestones, but, it's way more important to be focused on the now and preparation for the future. If you have practiced and prepared for winning or staying sober it shouldn't suprise you when you win or stay sober.