Hello Washbe! It's good to see you again, even under the circumstances!
This mom stuff surely ain't for weenies. It's hard work, especially when our kids make some really bad decisions and we have a front row seat to their self destruction.
I remember Jon saying that I could love my son to death if I wasn't careful... that I needed to allow him the dignity and joy of experiencing the consequences of his own actions. And oh by gosh that was so incredibly hard to do! Thank goodness I had all of you here to walk with me through those terribly difficult times.
I hope you're able to find some peace, and perhaps allow some distance between him and you so that you can rest and enjoy that peace.
We're here for you, and that's the beauty of this place. You can go away and come back, and SR will still be here with other moms who will stand next to you and hold your hand during the really scary parts.
Hugs
Cats