Bobby J,
You will still make it out of this.
I have seen so many times that when people feel chaotic or rageful inside, things just go to hell on the outside. Car accidents, bike accidents, broken this and broken that all of a sudden, as if your energies are so intense they actually affect the environment around you.
So, however you can unload that rage safely, I'd do that and for as long as it takes. You'll figure out some way to release that rage in a contained way so you nor anyone else is hurt.
It's still better than living with an abusive drunk any day. Right? Because at least broken plumbing doesn't make your heart hurt. Doesn't make you feel unloved and unlovable. Doesn't strip you of your self-esteem and your hope for a better life.
So, step at a time, fix the things that are broken, then release your anger on paper or walking hard or chopping wood.
Then, step at a time, make a plan to start your new life which absolutely holds the promise of peace and quiet and nurture and feeling beautiful again.
Wishing you well.