coping
I am a non stop coping machine. I meditate, do yoga, and generally in constant zen when my husband is around. He is a co dependent, it is hard to get space to myself. The emotional abuse and just rage is overwhelming and I have to distance myself which upsets him more. It's an all day marathon. We don't have a lot of money so we are stuck most of the time with each other in our small studio apartment. I lead a very spiritual life and am very grateful for at times like these but it is very very trying. I attend Al-Anon regularly but unfortunately there is little I can do about when my husband comes and goes. I really feel sometimes like I am being held hostage. My husband refuses to be intimate but instead entraps me by saying if I divorce him, he'll take half our meager assets because we didn't sign a pre nup.