Originally Posted by
MsPINKAcres 
((zoso))
a very wise old timer in al-anon once gave me the prayer to say to my Higher Power
simply. . .
"bless them and change me"
which I thought he was c r a z y ~ lol
but it has turned out to be a good prayer for ME ~
after all the best blessing for them would be a healthy recovery and I always could use a change for the better in MYSELF!
anyway - it's just what helps keep me focused on staying Happy, Joyous and PINKFully FREE!
Keep taking good care of YOU! YOU deserve it!
PINK HUGS,
Rita
I don't think that's crazy at all.
I don't see how I can get through this without showing my ex compasion. Even though I'm in a lot of pain, I also know that she's a lot sicker than I am.
The easiest thing for me to do -- and the worst possible thing I could do -- is to focus on the lying and the manipulation and feeding my anger with that. Instead, I'm allowing myself the anger, but not feeding it.
What hurts, though, is
I genuinely loved her and was in this for the long haul, and she was dismissive of those feelings. I know that callousness, that meanness, is symptomatic of BPD, but knowing what's going on doesn't make things easier for me to deal with.