anvil- here's me being as honest as possible... know what i think right now? i think that the problem IS me. i think that it's possible that if i have this many issues (with AH, his family, now these friends) that the common denominator is ME and they are right.
not all of me thinks this but it's this thinking that i can't shake right now.
insane, i know. but a good part of me believes the problem DOES lie in me.
why is it that no matter how far i feel i am getting in recovery, i can get this down about myself this fast based on what others say?
i think i am a good person but frankly am surrounded with people who i have trusted and shared personal things with who think otherwise and can they really all be wrong?