Hi all
Yes I definitely found my beast playing up when there was a segment on the news about the major problem of alcoholism in this country and the effects on our young people etc
AV was telling me
"who are you kidding - you have a SERIOUS problem and now you are a dry drunk - you need to get back to AA and work on a new design for living"
Worked out what was happening after a bit (when it wants booze it's more obvious - when it's not even after booze initially but rather attacts the method that is more subtle .. although it alwasy finishes a suggestion above with SO DRINK TONIGHT AND GO BACK TO AA ON MONDAY - it always wants to get the drink
I'm finishing off the book and have made a new big plan
I have to say that there is a lot of other crap going on in my life and I know being abstinent wont make alll my problems (step children, family issues etc) go away but it will put me in a far better position to deal with them