I love how Terminally Unique gets right to the point. No room for wiggling or rationalizations. I did a lot of self-sabotaging during my last two attempts at sobriety. Told myself I didn't know why I was doing it, but deep down I really did. I wanted to go back to my "love affair" with alcohol, when it used to feel good. Never mind that it hadn't felt good in many years ... I just wanted that feeling back. The buzz ... the mellow state of mind ... the oblivion. That's what I wanted because slipping back into oblivion felt better than dealing with life sober.
What thoughts come to mind, aeo?