Ive been there Muststop. I lost my job due to drinking and that just gave me more time to drink. I moved into my girlfriend's place thinking she would keep me sober, but I just drank when she wasnt around and hid bottles. I half-heartedly looked for a new job, drinking got worse, and she had me removed from her place by the police after a fight. I moved back to my parents, went to rehab, and i have a new job and apartment now. I had one relapse since, but im back on a good path now. This all happened this time last year. Im 35 now, but really ive been in state of arrested development for the last ten years. My friends all got married, had kids etc. But I was stuck at 25, acting the same. It feels good to get a new beginning...give it a shot!