Point of No Return...
Well I've gotten to the point where I feel that my cocaine-AH has stolen from me for the last time, lied to me for the last time, called me a f- ****** for the last time, blamed his behavior and addiction on me for the last time, scared me for the last time... I actually hate him... despise him and now that I am standing up for myself, he is worse than ever.
He has to go to court tomorrow for a DUI. He was caught over a year ago but has paid off the lawyer for the last year to get him out of it. He'll lose his license for 45 days I think. I don't think he is nervous about actually losing his license, but he is scared about not being able to easily get drugs anymore. So tonight, of course, he went out for his last night of driving hurrah! I can't understand where he gets money but I know he steals it indirectly from me and the business one way or another.
I never thought it would get to this point... 2 years ago I was almost accepting his addiction, sitting on the couch with him while he was high as a kite... and now... I hate him. I have no regrets for being with him because we have a beautiful little girl... but I don't want him in my life anymore. I have never hated someone so much...