I lost my appreciation for family and life. You get to that point where you think nothing matters -but you know deep down it does -but you can't seem to change how you feel, because you are enslaved to the booze.
I lost respect from my kids.
I lost a job.
I lost who I thought was me.
But in hindsight had found a greater appreciation and the utmost respect for my family, my life and found that sobriety had given me a new chance to gain all that I had lost. All that I had let go of. Now I embrace every single molecule of every single thing.
So although I had lost alot thru my drinking I feel I have regained much more threefold. I have spiritually grown, mentally developed, mindfully matured. It was part of the plan...the map of the journey...it was destined to be this way if I liked it or not and I wouldn't have it any other way. I have become an extremely strong person due to my past. Nothing can get me down now. Nothing.
As the saying goes, it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.