Originally Posted by
FT 
Harambulus,
I don't understand the wording of your post. You don't explain what you find dogmatic and irrational. Maybe it is your Beast that finds "it" dogmatic and irrational?
Why not just admit you are not ready to quit using? "White knuckling" is not part of AVRT.
If you still need "convincing" that you should quit drugs/alcohol, maybe you really don't want to stop. Stopping for any reason other than you WANT to be a non-drinker and non-drug-user is going to fail. I don't think you are there yet.
FT
I have been having discussions in other forums on the matter and further drug use is seeming more and more redundant to me since Iver realized any appeal to change my natural state of consciousness is mainly just lazyness.
Instead I want to work the 'fun muscle' which means leanring how to enjoy things myself.
As such its better to get in the habit of having fun on my own right now.
Guess Im talking myself into the big plan 'one day at a time'
- i jest