Harambulus,
I don't understand the wording of your post. You don't explain what you find dogmatic and irrational. Maybe it is your Beast that finds "it" dogmatic and irrational?
Why not just admit you are not ready to quit using? "White knuckling" is not part of AVRT.
If you still need "convincing" that you should quit drugs/alcohol, maybe you really don't want to stop. Stopping for any reason other than you WANT to be a non-drinker and non-drug-user is going to fail. I don't think you are there yet.
FT