(((SunSailor))) - when I first began recovery, I had been told that gratitude lists were a really good thing. I was not feeling gratitude. My first list? I said "I'm grateful for a soft pillow and bed" because I'd been in jail, and trust me, pillows and "beds" there were anything but soft. I said it through gritted teeth.
Funny thing, it did work. Within a very short amount of time, my gratitude list was so long I finally said "and everything else"
Today? I say "The good, the bad, and everything in between - I am grateful for my life and for each day I wake up". I didn't come UP with that until some time in recovery, but it really does help.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy