Thank you for sharing. I can imagine that you would have all kinds of feelings after the death of your father. I sometimes wonder what it will feel like when my alcoholic father dies. I don't know how I will react. I would think it would be with some indifference, some pain at what I never had, some disappointment that I never had a relationship with him..I don't really know. I hope you can find some peace. I know that there is nothing you could have done to stop his destroying of his life. I'm glad to hear that you have some good memories of him. Take care.