I hear you. I am 39 now and single and no children (that doesn't bother me as I never really was overly pushed, never had that maternal ticking clock).
But I would like to have a happy relationship with a good man and I never found one when I was drinking and know that I won't. I made a lot of bad chocies - the bad boys and the charmers.
Time to turn over a new leaf and am on day 15 now so fingerss crossed I can keep moving forward and make my life happier and in time meet someone to share and enjoy it with
I really love being sober and never want to go back to being the party girl. At my age it is losing it's appeal. I look young for my age so I probably have got away with it longer than most.
Stay strong, be happy
Sunny xx