My friend drinks half a beer and is silly & a bit under the influence. Then he's done fdrinking for the night! I don't understand that.
My other friend is a heavier drinker. No real consequences.
My drinking, which started at 3 beers every Friday & Saturday, progressively became worse over 35 years. I needed more to get the same feeling that I once got from 3. In an alcohol induced moment, I tried crack. Bad move.
No one can predict another's future, including one's own. I suggest you listen to aa speakers (xa-speakers) to see if you can relate. Or, try stopping for 90 days, just to see if you can.