Awww Crap...I cried reading all of your comments. Thank You!!!
I was confused on what all of that meant
It was such a "peace" I cant even explain it
Having a couple of hours to re-hash the conversation in my pea brain
I came to this:
It was his somewhat "honesty" that made me feel different. I've
had so much "anger" built up, not just angry pain, but angry because
he refused to accept the fact he was an alcoholic and angry
because he still wanted to blame everything on me and my kids.
He tried alittle bit of that crap on me today, but a year later, he
messed with a chick in recovery
- I let go of the anger and actually
felt compassion, not guilt, compassion for another human being.
"Compassion" is so much of who I am and what I am about.
It was against my nature, not to have compassion for him...It caused anger!
Today, I found compassion for my xah. I found peace!
Good Lord, I pray that I stay on this level of serenity for more than a day! lol
Because it is actually the best I have felt in a year...
For the first time in a year, I cant wait to go to bed to sleep, instead
of going to bed to hide from the pain......
"OH YEAH, BIG DADDY Cyranoak"...>Double Thumbs Up!! >> Truly an alcoholic and/or codependent response... < Just about peed my pants laughing...