You are not cold, or crazy.
When I accepted that XA's reality was not my reality I was less emotional about everything. I was not the one being a drunken clown night after night. I did not create all the trouble and chaos. He made the choice of drinking every stinkin day and he deserved all the consequences that went along with his actions.
I think it is wonderful that your ex husband is sober and I wish him continued sobriety. I think you are entitled to feel anyway that you want. You are the one who had a front row seat to view his actions on a daily basis. Just because he is sober today, does not erase what you have lived.
I think you are healing just fine. Being an emotional hot mess everyday is not healthy. I say good for you. Enjoy your life !!!!!!!